As I lay here in my hospital bed I write this out of a place of hurt,anguish and despair.
On July 28th I heard the happiest news yet again! Your pregnancy test is positive! My progesterone levels were a little low but the team of drs and I decided to put me on progesterone suppositories to see if they helped my levels. I made sure to tell my husband not to get excited for this very reason. For a whole two weeks we were in perfect bliss
About the impending bundle of joy we’ve worked so hard to get. FINALLY! we exclaimed, until tonight, I noticed I was spotting,then I got cramps REALLY BAD CRAMPS on my left side. So to play it safe I went to the ER to check on things. After sitting here for 5 hours I was pulled back into a room and given an ultrasound and saw an empty uterus. The Dr. Is now concerned because there is fluid on my left side and it looks as though the ectopic pregnancy has ruptured. Im scared, tired and very anxious. I came into the hospital pregnant and i’m leaving with no baby. I’m heartbroken.
I’ll make a more informative post in a couple of days (when i’m not so Crampy) about what my choices were to handle the ectopic pregnancy.
Every time we get 10 steps forward, we get hurled 1000 steps back. You guys, im just really sad right now. Your love and kind words would mean the world to me. 😭💔🖤
Mission Impossible 
4 replies on “I can’t.”
Awee so sorry I had 2 miscarriage and ik the feeling . Praying for you and your husband. I love you
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Not sure what cousin this is. But thank you. I’m also very sorry for your losses. Love you more! 🖤
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I spent 8 yrs think I could never have children. My Doctor told me because of my cyst on both ovaries and abnormal cell on my cervix that I was in the Lowest stages of getting cervical Cancer. I was terrified and devastated. I missed my period and I was like nah can’t be I can’t have like kids. I took a test with my friend it was positive I was happy my girls came over a celebrated with me. I woke had some light spotting I freaked. I when to the hospital that night . The doc said there is a yolk and your pregnant my levels were a bit low so just take it easy.. I went to school the next day and the bleeding started and it never ended went to the hospital they called it a spontaneous miscarriage because they couldn’t find what caused it the worst feeling is them not being able to tell you why you lost your child so. I lost my first child my heart was broken I fell into depression.. I lost my job. And what really made it worse was my friend finds out she’s pregnant the next day whole crazy right… 7 years later I might my now fiance and we have 2 beautiful children so please don’t give up I now it’s easier said then done but I know one day you belly will be blessed with something beautiful ❤️ stay strong and keep fighting. 💕💕
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Wow!!! Thank you I really needed to read this! Im sorry for your loss. I will most definitely keep fighting for Baby Ransom. 3 years in and still fighting. Thanks Love 🖤
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